SearchingSirocco

I have no idea how to become an ad film director. I am trying though and it seems there is a fix pattern on how things works in this world. I have to break that chain. I have to prepare the treatment notes. I have to prepare the proper introduction of my film production house. I don't take or make right efforts in the right direction. I have to work harder. the idea is to go to advertising houses and meet more people and try to know them. Create a repo with them. but people have created such a shield in front of them that it does not work anymore. No one is trying to meet you. Everyone is doing something. I have to have a bigger and better plan. a plan to which i will stick. I have to make a film this year too and publish a book too. so i have bigger plans but my biggest plan is to prove to myself that i can earn tn crore rupees this year. There is no place for frustration, depression and demotivation in my life. I cannot afford it. Plan your life accordingly. You have forgotten w...

Today i feel like i failed myself again. It is terrible. I haven't done much but the feeling has filled my mind. I am not feeling good and the reason is that there is not much happening in my life. There is not much i can do about my life. The money inflow is not there and there is not one thing in which i feel i am really good at. People are not picking my phones. But and a big BUT - Law of averages say that bad times don't remain for a long time and people need to do something about it. I am feeling bad because right now I have nothing else to do. I need to be more busy than this. I need to give myself more work. This is not happening. This is not how i can survive. I need to get money and i need to execute all my plans now without the fear of failures. I have been failing a lot these days and i don't want to fail anymore. I am going to plan out things more in detail.

The toughest thing that i have to do in my life is getting up int he morning. I have planned to get up at 5 in the morning and 6 in the morning but nothing seems to work. I can't get up through mind power techniques or alarm clock, the only thing that awakes me are mosquitoes. Yes there are so many blood sucking mosquitoes in my room that they wake me up in the morning. I don't know where they have come from but nothing works on them. No odomos or good night. I think they must have a science lab of their own where they are working towards how to reduce the effects of mosquito repellents. I love early mornings. It makes me feel that my days are bigger. But the days when i get up very early in the morning, I feel sleepy after two hours which defies the whole purpose of getting up int he morning. Still i would suggest that get up in the morning and do some exercise because it makes your whole day a little energetic and your thoughts a little positive. 

Throughout my life i never respected my own body. I was smoking, drinking and sleeping late hours and eating anything that i can. But now things have changed. I have to take care of my body because i have to become celebrity. So the firs thing that i realized I had to do was to maintain the discipline and persistence. My biggest problem was that I was paying to the gym all the time but was never going. Initially the results were seen but after a while I had realized that the results were stuck at a place and i would start finding things in my life that would distract me towards another thing. this is my first serious stint toward developing my life and i am very serious. My life is changing and the best part of it is that i am working very hard towards it. I am reading books and that has made all the difference. I knew that taking decision out of impulse won't motivate me enough to continue it for long. I knew that i had to reprogram my mind for success. I kept on filling my mind ...

If i ask you one thing that you think is necessary and is the most vital element of success then you will probably tell me that it is talent, hard work, luck, chance, contacts. You may be right. These are essential and vital elements for success but what is that one thing without which every of these things become meaningless. Well, keep reading because the suspense is not yet getting opened. My friend worked with Amitabh Bachchan and he asked him about his PR team who he thought was very efficient to which Amitabh Bachchan just laughs and tells him that he does not have a PR team instead he has fixed a slot for himself where he sits for two hours daily to write blogs and submit posts on twitter and facebook. My friend was aghast. The problem with today's world is that people lose patience very easily. The reason they lose patience very easily is because they are very easily distracted. There is so much distraction around is that it irritates everyone. The phone is continuo...

I don't go on facebook too much . I think it is colossal waste of time. But I go there once in a while just to check my notifications and check what is happening around. Most of the pages that i have liked are dog videos and i watch dog videos and photos whole day. That can never make you said. But what happened to Bhansali was not something that effected. I am from Film industry, Ok i agree i am little on the periphery of the film industry and not exactly inside it but i hear stories and have met people inside. Bhansali is very arrogant and he wants things his way, that may works on his set because everyone working for him is scared of him but that does not work on world that is outside. No one is untouchable. you cannot just make anything in the name of art. Frankly i do not like Bhansali, I never have. He is not an artist that he thinks he is and he is not the artist that everyone thinks of him. It is just my personal opinion. I am not supporting Karni sena for what they have...

So yesterday night I came home late and bought Karan Johar's book "An Unsuitable Boy" and started reading it. I was apprehensive about what it would be about but I found it a great read. It feels like that now I know Karan Johar as my next door neighbor. One of the reasons I liked the book was because the stories that were written in the book, I had grown up with those stories. I know Shahrukh Khan, Kajol, Aditya Chopra and everyone Karan knew like they were my buddies. I have grown up watching movies by Karan Johar and I always loved his films. Not any recent ones. There were so many things that I assumed about him. Like he was filthy rich and had a comfortable life. Well he was rich but to his own standards he was middle class, probably because he hadn't seen middle class. His love for Shahrukh and Aditya really moved me. I was really emotional reading what he thinks about Aditya Chopra. Karan i guess is someone who really wants someone really close to him. H...