5. Nothing much is here

It doesn't matter right sometimes whether you meet your past or not. My friend had the same story like me except he got married tot he girl of his dreams but his life wasn't dreamy at all. They both were fighting all the time which eventually led to divorce. I don't know whether it's worth waiting for someone just because it's been written in literature, romantic novels and shown in films. Is it worth to wait for a person and make your life static and stop anyone from entering into it.
Sometimes I am thinking that i am extending this way too far.
I question myself, why do i want to meet her? May be the only thing i need is closure from  her side.  Recently another girl messaged me on whatsapp and told me that she is in love with me. She wanted me to reciprocate. I could not. Love cannot be forced. It can happen only despite effort. You make efforts and it is not love.
The biggest problems with my mind is that i cannot be in love with same person for very long. My love for people changes everyday and everyday i fall in love with something else. Probably because i am a Gemini. These days after reading Linda Goodman I have been attributing all my idiotic habits and natural problems to my sunshine. IT's very convenient and takes of the guilt from your head. IT's not my fault. I was just born in wrong month. Had i been a scorpion i would have been more successful.
Recently i was maintaining this dairy in which i was writing one article everyday and about he goals about my life. Yes i have goals in my life and they are very important. I was living a goalless life till now but after hearing lots of self improvement audio books i realized the importance of keeping goals in life. Write write and write more; that was one of my first goals. I want to author another book and i want to make another movie. I want money in my life because it may be true that you cannot buy everything with money but still there is so much that you can still buy and live happily. May be you won't be truly happy but then everything comes with a price in life.    

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