SearchingSirocco

I have no idea how to become an ad film director. I am trying though and it seems there is a fix pattern on how things works in this world. I have to break that chain. I have to prepare the treatment notes. I have to prepare the proper introduction of my film production house. I don't take or make right efforts in the right direction. I have to work harder. the idea is to go to advertising houses and meet more people and try to know them. Create a repo with them. but people have created such a shield in front of them that it does not work anymore. No one is trying to meet you. Everyone is doing something. I have to have a bigger and better plan. a plan to which i will stick. I have to make a film this year too and publish a book too. so i have bigger plans but my biggest plan is to prove to myself that i can earn tn crore rupees this year. There is no place for frustration, depression and demotivation in my life. I cannot afford it. Plan your life accordingly. You have forgotten w...

Today i feel like i failed myself again. It is terrible. I haven't done much but the feeling has filled my mind. I am not feeling good and the reason is that there is not much happening in my life. There is not much i can do about my life. The money inflow is not there and there is not one thing in which i feel i am really good at. People are not picking my phones. But and a big BUT - Law of averages say that bad times don't remain for a long time and people need to do something about it. I am feeling bad because right now I have nothing else to do. I need to be more busy than this. I need to give myself more work. This is not happening. This is not how i can survive. I need to get money and i need to execute all my plans now without the fear of failures. I have been failing a lot these days and i don't want to fail anymore. I am going to plan out things more in detail.

The toughest thing that i have to do in my life is getting up int he morning. I have planned to get up at 5 in the morning and 6 in the morning but nothing seems to work. I can't get up through mind power techniques or alarm clock, the only thing that awakes me are mosquitoes. Yes there are so many blood sucking mosquitoes in my room that they wake me up in the morning. I don't know where they have come from but nothing works on them. No odomos or good night. I think they must have a science lab of their own where they are working towards how to reduce the effects of mosquito repellents. I love early mornings. It makes me feel that my days are bigger. But the days when i get up very early in the morning, I feel sleepy after two hours which defies the whole purpose of getting up int he morning. Still i would suggest that get up in the morning and do some exercise because it makes your whole day a little energetic and your thoughts a little positive. 

Throughout my life i never respected my own body. I was smoking, drinking and sleeping late hours and eating anything that i can. But now things have changed. I have to take care of my body because i have to become celebrity. So the firs thing that i realized I had to do was to maintain the discipline and persistence. My biggest problem was that I was paying to the gym all the time but was never going. Initially the results were seen but after a while I had realized that the results were stuck at a place and i would start finding things in my life that would distract me towards another thing. this is my first serious stint toward developing my life and i am very serious. My life is changing and the best part of it is that i am working very hard towards it. I am reading books and that has made all the difference. I knew that taking decision out of impulse won't motivate me enough to continue it for long. I knew that i had to reprogram my mind for success. I kept on filling my mind ...

If i ask you one thing that you think is necessary and is the most vital element of success then you will probably tell me that it is talent, hard work, luck, chance, contacts. You may be right. These are essential and vital elements for success but what is that one thing without which every of these things become meaningless. Well, keep reading because the suspense is not yet getting opened. My friend worked with Amitabh Bachchan and he asked him about his PR team who he thought was very efficient to which Amitabh Bachchan just laughs and tells him that he does not have a PR team instead he has fixed a slot for himself where he sits for two hours daily to write blogs and submit posts on twitter and facebook. My friend was aghast. The problem with today's world is that people lose patience very easily. The reason they lose patience very easily is because they are very easily distracted. There is so much distraction around is that it irritates everyone. The phone is continuo...

I don't go on facebook too much . I think it is colossal waste of time. But I go there once in a while just to check my notifications and check what is happening around. Most of the pages that i have liked are dog videos and i watch dog videos and photos whole day. That can never make you said. But what happened to Bhansali was not something that effected. I am from Film industry, Ok i agree i am little on the periphery of the film industry and not exactly inside it but i hear stories and have met people inside. Bhansali is very arrogant and he wants things his way, that may works on his set because everyone working for him is scared of him but that does not work on world that is outside. No one is untouchable. you cannot just make anything in the name of art. Frankly i do not like Bhansali, I never have. He is not an artist that he thinks he is and he is not the artist that everyone thinks of him. It is just my personal opinion. I am not supporting Karni sena for what they have...

So yesterday night I came home late and bought Karan Johar's book "An Unsuitable Boy" and started reading it. I was apprehensive about what it would be about but I found it a great read. It feels like that now I know Karan Johar as my next door neighbor. One of the reasons I liked the book was because the stories that were written in the book, I had grown up with those stories. I know Shahrukh Khan, Kajol, Aditya Chopra and everyone Karan knew like they were my buddies. I have grown up watching movies by Karan Johar and I always loved his films. Not any recent ones. There were so many things that I assumed about him. Like he was filthy rich and had a comfortable life. Well he was rich but to his own standards he was middle class, probably because he hadn't seen middle class. His love for Shahrukh and Aditya really moved me. I was really emotional reading what he thinks about Aditya Chopra. Karan i guess is someone who really wants someone really close to him. H...

Never be free. Never leave your mind free. I don't how people say that they are vacationing when there is so much to do in life. I am always busy in doing something. I am either listening to audiobooks or i am reading books or i am writing something but i am constantly doing some thing and everything has become a game for me since the time i have printed out sheets of numbers that count from 1 to 100 and i have put task on top of them and every time i do something i click on one of those sheets. I am attaching the photos of the sheet for those who want to use it. Putting the sheet on the walls was the single best thing i  did in 2017 because now i can keep the track of what i am doing. Every task has a proper end now. I know where i am going. I am keeping track of everything like how many pushups i do daily, how many pages i write daily, how many mails i send daily, how many blogs i write daily. Earlier everything was based on memory but now the motivation is to inish those charts...

The biggest problem is fear and in real life i have found that most people are afraid of things that are not even there. For instance, I was really afraid of what girls will say if i will ask them out. After reading myriads of pick up artist books now i have realized that no matter what they say to me when i ask them out for coffee has nothing to do with me. It is their personal life and i must respect their decision. I don't go out and ask girls out which most pick up artists do. I just ask them out on facebook and i have to start somewhere. Some wants to meet me and some don't so those who don't want to meet me, are defriended by me and those who wants to have cup of coffee with me are mots welcome and i go to meet them. It is that simple. Reading about pick up artists has not just helped me in taking to girls but it has also helped me in my real life situations. I am more easily able to deal with situations and i am very much in control of everything. I have started dre...

It is not that I don't like talking but I guess I have to stop talking now. I lost a job because of my talking. I have broken my own rules. I have made certain rules like I will speak less during meetings, make more observations and maintain constant eye contact. I give motivational lectures to so many people and so many times change their lives that I think I have developed this urgent craving for impressing people in front of me. I must stop that. No one can impress anyone by speaking too much. Either your content is ready and told from a the point of the view of the person who is listening to you or else no one cares about what one speaks. I broke many codes recently but i am going to mend all those broken bridges now. Life is all about failures and rejections and the more you get, the more successful you become. My life is soon going to get into a major change and soon i am going to become a billionaire and bigger star that has ever been born in this planet. I feel good abou...

Days ago i shaved my whole body. Except my head, there was not a single strand of hair on my body and surprisingly i loved it. My mom would always scare me by the thought of shaving the body by telling me things that would scare me more. I was really afraid that my body hair will grow hard and it will be difficult to maintain the body hair later on, and once you shave your body there is no turning back. The hair will be harder and thicker than ever. The manliness will be over. While most of it is true, the manliness part is not. In fact I feel more manly now that I have shaved my body. For the first time in my life i have felt my body and I fell in love with myself. I hated my body hair and for some reason i had more body hair than normal people. Now i put a lot of moisturizer on my body and do some exercise and I can now see my body getting curves and motivate me more towards exercise. I told few of my friends about it and they loved it too. They have also shaved their body and the...

Today I decided to cold call randomly to production houses and ask for job. I decided to call 100 production houses but I could only call 25 but that was a big achievement in itself as well. Not surprisingly, 90% of the cold calls turned out to be negative. Everyone was like, they have no jobs. I was pitching for my director's showreel and also for associate or assistant post as I welcome any money right now that would come from any source. The idea to start cold calling came from a book by Brian Tracy in which he tells that if you have to increase sales then start cold calling. It has always been a great method to get customers. I have decided that within coming month i will make a film which will break all records of independent viewing of films. I don't have script now but things are getting pretty serious now. I juts made the poster of the film and it looks fabulous and very soon I am going to put it online and start seeking help from people. I know people will help me...

"The Secret" works. "Law of attraction" works. One has to understand the reason why law of attraction works. Law of attraction works because when you think about something and you are constantly thinking about that thing than that thing starts to fill your mind and unknowingly you start working towards it. Don't think that law of attraction works because you merely think about it, no, the efforts will be made but the efforts will be so much in sync with your mind that you won't feel them. When you think about one thing again and again you start seeing them in every object you see and everything around your life seems like a weapon to use to get it or a ladder to climb and attain it. The secret says the same thing that every motivational speaker, religious books say about mind powers and success but it has a twisted method of doing it which most people don't understand. I didn't know it's effects until i tried them personally.

Film making is a process in which you have to to be ready to face problems. I stopped making films thinking about the problems that I would face when I would make the film. But the whole process of film making is tedious process. One has to understand that. What is the solution? There is no solution. The only solution is to deal with it. Some times when people like me who are in film line are unable to see the future in front of them and that is the worst phase of life. When things are going on and you are doing things in particular order and everything falls for you in place, you feel you are sorted but sometimes they don't and then you are like what should I do. Never feel disheartened by what people will tell you. Film making is not an easy job and not everyone can do it. People give their opinions based on what they can or cannot do. Don't listen to them. If you want to make a film go ahead and make it. don't think twice about what you can or cannot do. 

I don’t support Trump but he has made a really big influence in my life. And the reason is his persistence and belief. Nothing happens out of order. The man has something and that is why he became the president. I really do feel that he has drastically brought down single handedly the respect for US president’s chair. But the process of him becoming president, the most powerful man on planet as they say cannot be ignored. Everyone took him for granted when he first stood for presidency. They laughed at him and any person would have been demotivated looking at the amount of hatred and laugh you get but he kept on moving. Later he raised agendas that no one raised till now like throwing out immigrants and building Mexican walls. He didn’t play dirty, he changed everything to war. When earlier Presidential elections were peaceful arguments between two people who tried very hard to look perfect in front of people, here was a complete different situation. While Hillary was fighti...

I learned about advertising from books. As far as I remember I after college the only place I wanted to be was advertising and the reason was not work but cool factor. I really believed that advertising was the place I wanted to be until I actually got the chance to join an advertising company and they were paying peanuts as I was new to advertising. It was the worst one month of my life and I had to drag myself to work each and every day. What was the problem, you seem to be working? Firstly, I feel that the work of advertising is limited to Jumbo Xerox copy shop. They are creating stuff and arts of illustrator and photoshop. Most of the kids that I have found in advertising don’t read books and they are there because of cool factor as well. Sometimes when I would talk to them while smoking cigarettes outside, I would then get to know how frustrated they were. No one likes to go to job. Everyone seemed to enjoyed there but they don’t seem to be feel that they belong there. Sec...

Yesterday I met the producer of my ex film which never got released and frankly, I didn’t want to meet him but he lured me into meeting him by telling me that he was interested in releasing the film. My film was my baby and I wanted to release it. It was a good film. He had no intentions of releasing that film. He just wanted to meet me remove his guilt that he did wrong to me. He told me that he has evolved a lot during these years and he has become a better man but he hasn’t. He is the same old man and worse. Now he has started living in fool’s paradise. But that is not the thing that I want to concentrate on right now. The thing that came out of that meeting was something I have experienced before and I want to warn others about it. The feeling is of growing up after a tragedy or bad experience. Our mind is highly intelligent and even if we do dumb things all the time, our mind all the time works efficiently. I too have this feeling more mature and intelligent and wife after m...

Disclaimer : I loved Dangal. This is just a satire for humor sake because everyone is praising Dangal, including me, so I wanted to write all the fictional bad things about it. Dangal is one of the most regressive films of all times. I was forced by my friends to watch it and I hated every minute of it. First of all, Amir khan is looking like a fat goblin in the film which was really uncalled for. If he is a wrestler, where are his abs. He was businessman in Ghajni which medical conditions of Memory loss but still had good body and he still remembered how many sets of pushups and bench press he has to take. Maybe he wanted to look like Mahavir Phogat, but I ask you why. No one who is going to see this film has seen Mahavir singh Phogat before, what does it matter. He is looking fat, ugly and old by being father of four girls. We immediately know he is fooling us because I have seen every episode of Ekta Kapor’s every serial every aired and I know that till your grandson...