SearchingSirocco

 There are no limits to how many times a person can start something.  I have rolled over my willpower so many times that it has now started affecting me.  But once again, here I am trying to start again and begin again another chapter of my life.  The only thing I need is Karma and the only thing I need is to take action.  Will talk about the action in a while. Stay tuned. 

 Day 1 - March 1 - 2022 I have finally started my journey of no fap and no smoke where I have vowed to quit these two things forever.  It was not done by me but it was done by the God.  Shivji, Krishniji, Hanuman ji and My eternal Goddess Sai Pallavi came inside my stomach and sat there.  Krishna ji started his chakra in vertical postition to which Hanuman ji attached his gada and Shivji made it run. Sai pallavi lit the diya and made the wheel run.  I fapped last night and smoked one last time and it was not pleasreful. It was my last time so I wanted it to be very special. However it turned to be a not so exciting adventure.  But anyways, I meditated for a long time last night which is a relief for me.  The new life begins now. 

Chloe Bubba as I like to call him dearly has only one goal in life and that is to shred love to everyone. She cannot live without any other human being.  She always needs someone around.  She loves us most, by most I mean second. Her first love is food and she often gets angry on people who come between her and her food. We have also been victims of her growling.  There is something in her face which makes me want to kiss her the moment I see her.  I don't have an experience of having my own kid till now but I think I would not love even my daughter as much as i love her. I can give my life for her.  But that is life, isn't it? You feel the emotion you are feeling right now cannot be overpowered by any other emotions and then something else happens and you forget about this emotion.  I am pretty sure that the day I will have my own daughter, I will love her more than anything else. I can say it because I have listened to the experience of other people and t...

 I don't have many subscribers and I don't have many views on my channel but yet I knew somehow that i have to keep posting videos like every day to get more views and get more people to subscribe to my channel.  The reason being, First I needed to get into the habit of making youtube videos and second it will increase my channel.  I treat my youtube video channel as a shop where I knew I have to post a lot of videos for the time when people will come to my channel and see that there is so much content on my channel and will subscribe to it.  I can almost see the results now. If I ask someone for an interview than I see that they don't decline my request.  The second most important thing that I have to start doing now is to start approaching girls and talk to them. The more girls I will talk to the better my communication skills will get.   There are so many goals I have listed for myself that i often confuses me as well. But the going is good and I am...

 I wanted to take some interviews on my youtube channel but that didn't happen because of an unusual amount of rain in Lucknow due to which there were huge light fluctuations. I wonder if these sudden weather changes is because of worldwide covid lockdown reasons. You know weather has improved over time.  Maybe this is just my observation.  I love rain and I would love that it continues for a longer period of time but I know that the Winter is coming and rain might be an indication of the climate change.  It is very difficult to control yourself when there is rain and you want to eat something but you can't because first it is COVID and second your stomach is nearly always upset.   I have to improve my health and I will start doing it soon.

Damn It. people just don't want to work hard and here I am trying to bust my ass to become successful. I have a target of 100 crore rupees and I feel that now the only thing that remains in my mind all the time is that I want to become a billionaire. I have started blogging again. Purely for one reason.  I want to write more. But this time it is going to be small steps at one time.  I am only going to write blogs of 200 words each and won't target 2000 words like last time which actually demotivated me from writing anything at all.  I think everyone should start small and that is how one reaches the biggest goals of life. Writing is something I want to do my entire life and for that, I will keep on doing the writing work that I am doing right now.  Stil my English is not that great despite me trying to very hard at times to improve it. Where is the motivation? After a while I guess we all lose motivation in doing things which don't matter in a longer period of time....

Today as I was jogging, i realized that i have a mask on my face. Due to lockdown, i don't go anywhere without the mask. Not because I am too cautious about my health but my parents, they shout at high decibels if i don't wear them. Looking at the average number of people who are getting corona and the number that are getting killed i can tell you that I am not anymore afraid of corona. Not many people are dying of it. More people die of accidents on road than they die from corona. Europe is even considering me for Nobel price for my noble research. hehehe.. Anyways, so i removed the mask to breathe some air because while you are jogging you need as much air as much possible. Another ground breaking discovery of mine. So i removed it and wufff... what a breath of freah sir having scent of flowers, grass, pollens, fresh oxygen, also carbon dioxide as it was early morning mixed with dust, enemy pollens and piss smell from nearby toilet gave me a feeling that life is much b...

Damn it. I was demotivated last night. Everything was black in front of me and I didn't know what to do. Then suddenly it struck to me that what if I keep a track of everything. I mean just write down every activity that I am doing. Won't I feel motivated to know how much I am doing every minute of the day? I picked a diary and start doing work and damn it really kept me motivated. Every week there is one day when I feel demotivated and feel that nothing will ever happen for me and that is the time when I feel everything stops working for me. I just have to lose this day and keep myself motivated all the time. 

Yes, it is true that there is no limit to how many times you can restart what you really want to do. I think at times when you begin doing things, even you wouldn't know where it will end up. It is not necessary to every time know that what will be the end result of what you are going to do. No one knows anything really. You can only predict what you are really thinking. A person becomes achiever when he moves on to achieve things in life right from the beginning. It is not a habit that one can grow over time. I have to develop it. 

Well, books say that you should think and grow rich but in my opinion, thinking is the biggest detriment to success. The more you think, the more it paralyzes you and the more you are unable to take any action. I think I should be, and anyone should be, more action-oriented after all it is the actions that bring in more results. Right now at this age where I have spent so much time of my life to groom myself for the success I think the time has come for me to take action rather than brood about consequences. Hmmm... More action from now on.

So another day.... another revelation and another beginning. The most important thing I learned today is that I have to seek limelight if i have to get successful. One cannot desire for success by bypassing people. Damn it, sometimes i wonder that why did i even stopped reading books. I think my life is going to take a huge turnaround and i am going to be a huge success. Only time will tell. Let's wait and watch.

When things don’t go my way, the natural course of action in my case is that I get irritated which further leads to a state where I get negative. That is not just me but any general human reaction and since it is an ever happening phenomenon, so I have devised methods to save myself from it. There will always be plans inside the human mind, there will always be expectations and there will always be times when nothing will ever happen as we thought it should happen. The best solution for it is to move on and immediately engage our mind in something that can shift our thought process to somewhere else. In my case, I start doing something else. Of course, there have been times when I had nothing to do and since the expectation of something happening was so huge that I could not divert my mind. At those times, I refuse to think inside my mind. I start to think on paper. I take out my diary and start writing about it like what future course of actions I will take to avoid...

There is no doubt that Gary V is one of the most influential internet personality today. I have read his "Jab Jab.." and I loved it back then and then randomly I found this book and decided to give it a read as well. The Book is about the internet, passion, entrepreneurship, startups, finding purpose in life, doing whatever it takes to get successful and personal branding along with bits of Gary's life, upbringing and how he grew up and got interested in the internet. If you are a Vlog maker or a Blog writer or both like me then you will definitely love this book. This book will motivate you to start making your own vlogs right now. In a sense, this is a motivational book as well. Gary's writing is easy to read, clear, crisp, easy to understand and for some reason, every heading is intentionally kept in small fonts or maybe that was in my Kindle format, I don't know. People are reading less and books business is going down the drain. In this era books like thes...

What does it take to work successfully as a Youtuber?  First, it is the dedication and then it is persistence. These two things work hand in hand. If you want to become a successful YouTuber you have to keep posting videos without caring about whether they will hit the right audience or not. Most of the youtube videos that you will see will tell you that they have arrived at it by an accident. They didn’t know themselves but once something hits the right goal they keep working on it till it becomes massive. The kick is to find that right video. But again, a new question arrives that what is the right kind of content that you should choose to become a successful YouTuber. Googling on the internet will give you lots of options but DON’T read them. You cannot find your calling on the internet. Your calling is inside you and you can only find it thinking about the things that you have done in your life and things that you like doing. Remember, Pewdi...

Everything stopped once i came to Mumbai. I was writing blogs and i was thinking of writing blogs everyday till i reach a popularity or 1000 posts, whichever first. I was making youtube videos and i am not doing that anymore. Shashiji, my friend who was a creative director on the the film shorgul in which i was assistant director had asked me to work in his new venture which is a channel for a spiritual Guru. But no one is talented in this group. No one is working hard. I don't know what is written for me, but I am destined to work great. This is not where i should work. This is not where i can progress. I need to move. I need to make decisions. I need to move.  

If you really think that Kejriwal is going to change India, you are wrong. I am not merely issuing a statement, I have my valid reasons. Don't vote for Kejriwal. This is coming from a converted Kejriwal Fan. I was a Kejriwal fan and I thought he will change the country for good. These days I am not sure what his intentions are but his psychology seems pretty clear. He wants to become great and he sees himself as the messiah and become the savior of people even when they don't need to be saved from anyone. He portrays BJP as evil but till date, BJP and Modi have only done well for India. On the other hand, he feeds people with negativity and doubts about everything BJP does. He doubts surgical attacks, something the country should be proud of. He doubts demonitisation, when demonitisation was not about bringing black money, ti was about eliminating black money and forcing people to open bank accounts for transparent transactions. He never praised Yogi Adityana...

The normal course of action for any person in my case would be to do the sane thing. But not me, no sir. I have done so many things to fuck my own ass and then laugh at myself for doing it. I don't have a girlfriend and damn these girls who look so fake these days that intelligent girls are either fat or ugly. I want the perfect combination even though I am intelligent but little ugly from world's point of view. I am beautiful from inside. My kidney, heart, intestine, inside skin are all beautiful but I guess no one cares about that. People care about things they can see and that is their problem - their eyes, I think everyone should be poked needles in their eyes right when they are eye to make them blind, that way this world will become a better blinded place, except we have to leave one person with eyes so that he can poke needle in other people's eyes, we can't risk a blind man poking on a person's body just to find the right place to poke. It will be a cruel t...

There is no other actress I have been more crazy about after Aishwarya Rai than Nayanthara. She is one powerful actress and she has made her prominent place as top leading actress in South Indian Industry. It wont be an understatement if I say that I am a crazy fan of her and stalk every movie of her just to see her. Aramm trailer (teaser) releases today and it looks similar to Kaththi in terms of raising social issues of poor farmers. Initially when i started watching the teaser i thought it was a documentary in which Nayanthara must have participated but slowly the documentary teaser takes a commercial turn and we see Nayanthara walking in slow motion with determined face towards somewhere. It is evidently clear that she is some government officer trying to solve problems of poor people and the look and expression she carries on her face doesn't give her any less power than the entry of any other South Indian Superstar. I love to see a female oriented film in which a lady i...

First of all, they are not dogs, they are people and for us, they are our kids. They are my kids and they are treated like kids by everyone in my family. Eleven years back in March, we bought Dodo home from a relative’s house. They got six bull terrier kids with them and we adopted one of them. Thy was born the legend of Dodo. White as snowball with black shiny eyes who could just melt you with his stare and would look at you knowing that these people will take care of him for the rest of his life. I and my brother became his father and we love every moment of it. I have to accept this thought that my brother loves Dodo more than I do. Don’t get it wrong, I love him too. But I think my brother loves him more than I do. If Dodo is getting irritated and doesn’t want anyone around, he bites you, he doesn’t mean it but it is his way of telling you that he needs his privacy. He does it only occasionally, like once or twice in a year. If he does that to me, I would get angry and ...

You have a choice. You always have a choice. When someone says they don’t have a choice then they are lying. They think they don't have a choice because they don’t want to choose the other side but still they have the choice. You chose whether you want to live a peaceful calm life at a hill station or you want a life that is full of noise and people bustling around you with fame and glamor. Both choices are equally right. When you are fat and you want to become thin, it is a tough choice you make because most people create the reason why they want to remain in the same condition of misery as they were earlier. Every superhero gets a choice about what he wants to do. According to me, superhero is a superhero because when he is given a choice he takes a decision, he makes a choice. It is difficult to make a choice and it is difficult to make a decision. One of my friends works as an assistant art director in ad films. He recently got an ad film to produce. He offered m...