SearchingSirocco

Chloe Bubba as I like to call him dearly has only one goal in life and that is to shred love to everyone. She cannot live without any other human being.  She always needs someone around.  She loves us most, by most I mean second. Her first love is food and she often gets angry on people who come between her and her food. We have also been victims of her growling.  There is something in her face which makes me want to kiss her the moment I see her.  I don't have an experience of having my own kid till now but I think I would not love even my daughter as much as i love her. I can give my life for her.  But that is life, isn't it? You feel the emotion you are feeling right now cannot be overpowered by any other emotions and then something else happens and you forget about this emotion.  I am pretty sure that the day I will have my own daughter, I will love her more than anything else. I can say it because I have listened to the experience of other people and they say that having a

 I don't have many subscribers and I don't have many views on my channel but yet I knew somehow that i have to keep posting videos like every day to get more views and get more people to subscribe to my channel.  The reason being, First I needed to get into the habit of making youtube videos and second it will increase my channel.  I treat my youtube video channel as a shop where I knew I have to post a lot of videos for the time when people will come to my channel and see that there is so much content on my channel and will subscribe to it.  I can almost see the results now. If I ask someone for an interview than I see that they don't decline my request.  The second most important thing that I have to start doing now is to start approaching girls and talk to them. The more girls I will talk to the better my communication skills will get.   There are so many goals I have listed for myself that i often confuses me as well. But the going is good and I am enjoying the journey.

 I wanted to take some interviews on my youtube channel but that didn't happen because of an unusual amount of rain in Lucknow due to which there were huge light fluctuations. I wonder if these sudden weather changes is because of worldwide covid lockdown reasons. You know weather has improved over time.  Maybe this is just my observation.  I love rain and I would love that it continues for a longer period of time but I know that the Winter is coming and rain might be an indication of the climate change.  It is very difficult to control yourself when there is rain and you want to eat something but you can't because first it is COVID and second your stomach is nearly always upset.   I have to improve my health and I will start doing it soon.

Damn It. people just don't want to work hard and here I am trying to bust my ass to become successful. I have a target of 100 crore rupees and I feel that now the only thing that remains in my mind all the time is that I want to become a billionaire. I have started blogging again. Purely for one reason.  I want to write more. But this time it is going to be small steps at one time.  I am only going to write blogs of 200 words each and won't target 2000 words like last time which actually demotivated me from writing anything at all.  I think everyone should start small and that is how one reaches the biggest goals of life. Writing is something I want to do my entire life and for that, I will keep on doing the writing work that I am doing right now.  Stil my English is not that great despite me trying to very hard at times to improve it. Where is the motivation? After a while I guess we all lose motivation in doing things which don't matter in a longer period of time.  

Today as I was jogging, i realized that i have a mask on my face. Due to lockdown, i don't go anywhere without the mask. Not because I am too cautious about my health but my parents, they shout at high decibels if i don't wear them. Looking at the average number of people who are getting corona and the number that are getting killed i can tell you that I am not anymore afraid of corona. Not many people are dying of it. More people die of accidents on road than they die from corona. Europe is even considering me for Nobel price for my noble research. hehehe.. Anyways, so i removed the mask to breathe some air because while you are jogging you need as much air as much possible. Another ground breaking discovery of mine. So i removed it and wufff... what a breath of freah sir having scent of flowers, grass, pollens, fresh oxygen, also carbon dioxide as it was early morning mixed with dust, enemy pollens and piss smell from nearby toilet gave me a feeling that life is much b

Damn it. I was demotivated last night. Everything was black in front of me and I didn't know what to do. Then suddenly it struck to me that what if I keep a track of everything. I mean just write down every activity that I am doing. Won't I feel motivated to know how much I am doing every minute of the day? I picked a diary and start doing work and damn it really kept me motivated. Every week there is one day when I feel demotivated and feel that nothing will ever happen for me and that is the time when I feel everything stops working for me. I just have to lose this day and keep myself motivated all the time. 

Yes, it is true that there is no limit to how many times you can restart what you really want to do. I think at times when you begin doing things, even you wouldn't know where it will end up. It is not necessary to every time know that what will be the end result of what you are going to do. No one knows anything really. You can only predict what you are really thinking. A person becomes achiever when he moves on to achieve things in life right from the beginning. It is not a habit that one can grow over time. I have to develop it. 

Well, books say that you should think and grow rich but in my opinion, thinking is the biggest detriment to success. The more you think, the more it paralyzes you and the more you are unable to take any action. I think I should be, and anyone should be, more action-oriented after all it is the actions that bring in more results. Right now at this age where I have spent so much time of my life to groom myself for the success I think the time has come for me to take action rather than brood about consequences. Hmmm... More action from now on.

So another day.... another revelation and another beginning. The most important thing I learned today is that I have to seek limelight if i have to get successful. One cannot desire for success by bypassing people. Damn it, sometimes i wonder that why did i even stopped reading books. I think my life is going to take a huge turnaround and i am going to be a huge success. Only time will tell. Let's wait and watch.